There's only so many more cuts a bleeding person can take....
I’m a British citizen, and I love my
country. Traditional cream teas, incredible stretches of coastline, ironic British
summers, rainy bank holiday barbecues, and a general stoic attitude to life. I
love that my country has a welfare state, a system which endeavours to ensure
people’s basic human needs are met, regardless of their social economic status,
education, or experiences in life. I love our NHS. In fact, I am hugely reliant
on our NHS for B. He has severe medical needs and I am literally dependant on
the NHS every single day for his survival. If you haven’t seen the recent film
Paddington then you’re missing out. Clever scripting and great performances
follow the hilarious adventure of a Peruvian bear, sent to the far flung land
of London for safety following a devastating earthquake and destruction of his
home. Britishness personified. Paddington
also shows some wisdom beyond his years. ‘Mrs Brown says that in London
everyone is different, and that means anyone can fit in. I think she must be
right - because although I don't look like anyone else, I really do feel at
home. I'll never be like other people, but that's alright, because I'm a bear.
A bear called Paddington.’
Following the recent election I’ve been
trying to collate my thoughts into some sort of legible piece- something which
proved a lot harder than I first imagined. Whichever way you voted, there’s no
doubt that the result was a shock to the British public; an overwhelming blue
majority left the rest of the country wondering where it all went wrong. It’s
true that our seat system doesn’t make for fair democratic representation. It’s
also true that a third of the eligible electorate chose not to use their vote,
but, those things aside, the overwhelming feeling on Friday morning across the
country was a bleak and hopeless one. Maybe it’s because I hang out with people
of a similar mindset, but my social media feeds were full of people desperate
to know why we had not only voted the same government in again, but how this
time round we’d voted them in to govern alone.
Austerity has hit hard the last few
years, globally as well as nationally, and as a working class member of society
with a disabled child the cuts have been deep and wounded us savagely. I know
it’s terribly un-British to talk about the m-word, but hear me out. The leaders
of today’s government are privileged enough to have come from homes where
private education, private healthcare and well above average incomes abounded.
David Cameron himself said he wasn’t in politics to defend privilege, but
instead to spread it. I’ve unfortunately not felt the benefit of any of that
privilege-spreading. In my lifetime, rents and house prices have soared, those
from low socio-economic status have been priced out of higher education by ever
increasing tuition fees, and the cost of living has risen disproportionately to
the wages people earn. Forgive me Mr Cameron, but that doesn’t sound like the
furthering of privilege. On the contrary
it suggests the intensification of an ugly elitism already prevalent and
hell-bent on polarising the British people into those able to build on inherent
wealth and privilege, and those scrabbling around in a wholly unsupportive and
unrealistic economic climate.
Stripping back all the political
rhetoric, I want to make this personal. I grew up under Thatcher’s regime; born
into poverty to parents struggling to make ends meet, and the first child of a
sick mother and an uneducated father. Of course back then the kind of sickness
my mum suffered with, mental illness, wasn’t recognised like it is now, and
services were fairly non-existent excepting admission to psychiatric
institutions for those most severely affected. After mum had me, she went on to
have my sister, and her mental health deteriorated steadily with the pressures
of raising two small children alone on minimal income while our dad found
forces work abroad to make ends meet. She didn’t have family close by, and our
only support network was the local church, which was, incidentally, incredible.
The thing is, my mum needed more support than a cuppa and a shoulder to cry on.
She needed professional help to manage her bi-polar disorder (and other
associated diagnoses) alongside bringing up her kids, not least because on my
fourth birthday my dad decided it was all too much and left in search of a
newer, better life.
That was the beginning of a pendulous
existence for Mum, swinging wildly between varying periods of institutional
‘care’ and managing at home with minimal community support. For us as children,
it meant a life spent carouselling between friends houses, home (where we cared
for mum, presumably to save the state money on essential professional support)
and short or medium term foster placements. The nature of mum’s disorder meant
she was often unable to get out of bed or function on any sort of living
standard level. Serious self harm featured regularly, and she acted
impulsively, failing to adequately manage the little money she was offered by
the state to ‘live’ on. Dad was never held to account in contributing
financially to support his children, and so responsibility for our survival as
a family fell to mum. Responsibility she just wasn’t able to deal with. The
worst thing about this all? We were mum’s world; she would have done anything
in her power to keep us safe and give us the life she never had. But that’s
exactly the point- none of this was within her power. She was ill. Just like
cancer, except that this sickness didn’t qualify for support from the system.
And like cancer, this sickness led to a downward spiral of guilt, anger, and
more depression, exacerbating the already hugely prevalent issues in our little
family. Some weeks we were sent into school with a packed lunch consisting of
nothing but a piece of buttered bread and some water. Other weeks we had to be
taken home from school by teachers since mum never made it out of bed that day.
I remember being chilled to the bone during double glazing and central
heating-free winters in clothes and shoes that were frankly inadequate for such
inclemental weather. All the while feeling the responsibility of caring for Mum
and my younger sister; making sure I knew the numbers to ring if I couldn’t
wake Mum up, or scraping together a hot meal from the freezer to feed us,
reassuring my sister that whatever happened I wouldn’t let them split us up if
we had to go into care again.
Essentially, while the Tories continued
to bring the country into economic success, families like ours fell off the
radar. Poverty was pushed out of sight, where it remained out of mind for those
who weren’t affected. Blame was placed squarely on the shoulders of those who
found themselves in less than favourable circumstances, and while the country
thrived from the outside, a whole subgroup of people went deeper and deeper
into despair.
My mum actually passed away in January
of 2013. For her, the damage inflicted by the system supposed to protect and
support vulnerable people was too much. She passed away from pneumonia at the
age of 54 during a particularly cold winter, too scared to switch on the one
gas fire in the house for fear of not being able to pay the bill. Her mental
health had by this point impacted on her physical health, and she had a host of
additional physical diagnoses which became too complex for any one field of
doctors to deal with effectively. Mental health professionals decided she
needed medical support, while medical professionals passed her care to the
mental health department. As such, everyone became complacent in her care, and
as a direct result, she died. After her death I found over £30,000 worth of
debt in her name, lots of it amassed through loan consolidation companies that
had done nothing but increase her troubles, preying on her at her most
vulnerable. Banks had lent her money she could clearly not afford to repay, and
her embarrassment and shame was such that I never even knew about any of this
until after her death.
This is the true cost of austerity. Real
people, in real situations, with all-too-real struggles. I’m a British citizen,
and I love my country. I love its people. And I see far too often, how the government
does not. How the mantra of the middle classes is money first, people second. I
know the system is strained, and I know decisions need to be made about
tightening our collective belt, but what does it say about us as a nation when
we use that belt to choke those who already have no voice? I want a better
future for my boy and others like him. And as a wise man once said, a nation
should not be judged by how it treats its highest citizens, but how it treats
it’s lowest ones. Do we really value diversity? Do we treat those lowest
citizens with the respect they deserve just because they are fellow human
beings? Can everyone, like Paddington, fit in, even when they are different?
Manifestos
and policies are in danger of reducing people’s worth to what they are able to
contribute economically, but humanity demands a different measure. A measure
not easily identified by charts, or graphs, or numbers, but one of higher-order
thinking. My child will likely never be able to contribute financially to
society, but he has taught so many people so much on multiple levels. We cannot
and must not use people’s economic ‘worth’ to make decisions on the help and
support they are entitled to; this moves us as a nation into seriously
precarious territory. I’m an idealist, and in a country as rich as ours, no
child should be going without food. No disabled person should be lacking in
care support necessary for their basic human dignity. Those with mental health
problems should be adequately supported, not institutionalised. Those
struggling with poverty-stricken environments should be facilitated, not
vilified. Please, please, think for yourself on these things. Because this
matters; literally, in a life and death kind of way, this really matters.
Humanity
necessitates humility, and humility means sometimes saying, we fucked it all
up, let’s start over. I can’t change my childhood experiences, but we owe it to
the next generation to change theirs. Everyone is valuable, everyone has
something to contribute, and everyone is worthy of the chance to be the best
person they can be.
Success
is a dreamer who never gave up. Let’s dream the dream together and make a
better world happen.
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